Depression, mental health questions?

Okay i am severly depressed due to a number of things. I have a great family, but diagnosed myself with pedophilia and ephebophilia. Pedophilia being of course ual attraction to children and ephebophilia to children in puberty. It has made me hate myself and i feel disgusted everytime i look in the mirror. I have anorexia, trichotillomania or hair pulling and anxiety disorders. I have no attraction to adults and I feel that me being on this earth can only hurt others and at best not benefit at all. Im so tired and i have no idea where to turn. I have a therapist but i if i tell her i don't want to be sent to a hospital. I also do self injure so I dont know. I don't know how i would do that without going to a psych ward. Im 16. What the hell should I do??